wisdom teeth extraction adventure!
4 commentsi thought having the first post up being about unemployment is quite depressing so yeah
i’ll write about my wisdom tooth extraction adventure!
which was yesterday
i am on my 3rd pain killer (just tylenol-3, someone i know got vicodin!!! wow—i feel like my pain is not worthy)
i went to bed quite early (9 something) after continuously watching gintama non-stop. and got up around 3 am and took a painkiller and now i can’t sleep T_T
well it was alright
everyone that i talk to told me it was going to be
it just seems a lot more scary when you’ve never done it before
other than the giant needles going in for the local anesthesia
the other worst part is choking on your own blood….
and the sounds, the sounds are bad but other than that it was really fine
watched some cartoons while teeth were being pulled out
i was really nervous through out but when i was done it was alright
my friend drove me home ! so nice of her, went by the pharmacy to buy drugs and ice cream
but since i had to wait for a while we decide to walk around the mall
the gauze in my mouth stopped doing its job and my mouth was filled with blood. my whole lower face was numb so i couldn’t feel it and blood was just dripping out of my lower lip and spilled on my shoes and scarf 
also it looked scary!! and i made a mess but i cleaned it up
my friend was very nice, thank you
got home, and just kept bleeding for a while, gave up with the gauze after a while and i think it was better after that…..
now just waiting for it to heal!
got all four out, so hopefully won’t have to worry about that anymore~~~
argh am i tired yet?
u p DATE
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uhhh so im writing again
like the type of writing day that’s like i will take random breaks because i am procrastinating or i am tired or i can’t do it anymore
but whenever i stop i feel bad for stopping so i have to go back and write some more
There are epiphanies and then there is what I feel. In some sense of the word, what I feel is an epiphany too. A sudden moment of brilliance (or despair) that will undoubtedly take up your schedule for the rest of the day, the week, the month, or even the year. If epiphanies could be plotted on a spectrum like radio waves and microwaves, then what Archimedes felt as he jumped out of the bathtub butt-naked and shouted out Eureka would be on one end of the spectrum while what I consider to be my epiphanies would lie on the other side of the spectrum. This spectrum is not measured by the sheer genius of it, or how useful it will be to society and mankind. The spectrum is solely based on how it makes the epiphanator feels. Archimedes, felt brilliant and relieved to have solved the problem that the king had assigned. While I, could only plunge further into a new level of despair that I had yet to have discovered.
The epiphany of this magnitude only reveals itself a few times a year. It’s not normally scheduled but ever since I graduated it has been following a schedule as tight as the German train system. It comes (at least) once on my birthday and once on New Year’s day.
And it is New Year’s day.
This epiphany is hitting me head on. It’s also hitting my shoulders, legs, knees, back, hair, and pores. This epiphany hurts.
I am in my room, lying on my bed, faced down. However, not in a pool of my own vomit.
oh yeah, can’t you feel my literary genius?
imma gonna go..read some magazines and try not to ruin minds with my writing now…
Going to Now
3 commentsI took my exam for grad school on Thursday.
It went…alright.
I will know if i I get into the school of Journalism at Columbia University in New York City sometime in March or later?
Things that I have to do now but I have been putting off
1. Finish my financial aid thingy for grad school, due February 1st.
I don’t really do these because I never think I can get any money ever. Due to lack of excellence in every possible area, they really have to invent some sort of special category to force money on to me. And because they don’t do that, it’s like, oh alright, no money for you.
And why am I applying for it this time? Because the school costs so much…!! So much that I was thinking that even if I get in I should put it off for one year and try somehow to make that much cash from now until then. But that’s a horrible idea.
2. I am going to start my book again. which book you ask? the one that never ever got written.
3. I am going to resume Chinese calligraphy.
This will help me in reading and writing chinese and hence making me a less useless chinese person.
It helps to bring inner peace or something because it’s such a …concentrated task.
Also it just looks goddamn cool.
So report finished. Right now I will clean my room….and…yeah!
(photo less post is photo less, i’m sorry)
BONUS: oh yeah I think I am 2 books away from finishing my 52 out of 52 and currently in the middle of the marriage plot….
almost done!
edit: also seriously looking for a job now! !
TODAY
Comments Offsometimes i dont’ know what to title a blog post, ah wells that’s history since every time i’ll have that problem i will just talk about TODAY and file it under TODAY
so writing has been going surprisingly smoothly! :D i’m finding that i want to write more and more, i still procrastinate like crazy but at the end of the day i get the work done. this is my to do list for the day.
1. Rewrite opening paragraph, it freaking sucks
2. Rewrite any part of the rest of the chapter that isn’t good
But seriously though, before it took me quite a few hours to even settle down and open word, now i open word the first thing, peruse on tumblr a bit. Read what I’m editing for the day, jot down notes, compare with old notes, play with different colored muji pens and re-read again then write down more notes. By the way, I can’t use ball-point pens anymore, i can only use ink, what is that? what IS THAT? Someone needs to donate me some muji pens, we don’t have a store here. I still have a fairly large supply but what’ll I do when I run out .. the horror. Darn it, they don’t have the crazy colors like mouse green online; which happens to be my favorite shade.
My mom has never been to Japan so when we were in China and I saw a Muji store I was very excited to show her everything that it held. Of course she liked it, it’s high quality and simple. If I get a chance to live in japan sometime I’ll be sure to furnish everything from Muji.
edit i’m doing something social and going out later tonight. I didn’t edit a single word of chapter two instead i decided that i’m going to scrap the whole thing. i’ve already scrapped a lot of stuff already. this stage of the game is merely an edit which i have to make things consistent, it’s raining here then a recollection of that scene gota be raining too. Eye colors, height, hair color i haven’t really paid any attention so that’s what i’m trying to do but instead the writing is not good enough so i’m distracted by the bad writing that i can’t even properly edit.
i also created three new chapter slots to be slotted in, i don’t know why i do this because i don’t know if i have enough material to go on. but i keep feeling that the characters all need to be developed more.
i went on a 2 hour walk today, man i was exhausted when i got back but it was a good kind of exhaustion i think.
i also started writing by hand, you go through pens fast, i also tend to give up because writing by hand is exhausting…physically.
i just read this cool tumblr post from Bobby Hundreds. I’m not really into that life style anymore but ive always respected him, as a human being and as an artist/business person. He’s just talking about haters and how he doesn’t give a shit.
the type of insecure / jealous person that he describes in that post sounds familiar because i think i use to be one of those people. So, I can honestly say with confidence that I’m not like that anymore. Does that mean I have improved myself so much that I am a secure person? Definitely not, I’m still insecure, but this insecurity is from my own point of view, as in I’ll know where I need to improve and this insecurity is not a result of someone else’s success. I am really happy when other people do well now, like honestly happy not like happy on the outside but jealous on the inside.
i’m really happy that he addressed this issue. i really hope more people will see it this way, that hating people is honestly an exhausting feeling.
one thing that i always had trouble with other people’s success is that i always think that they don’t deserve it. I always would think, what have they done to deserve this? Well maybe they really don’t deserve it but it’s also not something that i can make a call on, i don’t know them, i don’t know anything about their life so i really can’t say…
so, instead of being mad, just move on, and do your own thing.
lol, i’ll go back to work now…
TODAY
5 commentsI have allergies, man it freaking sucks because i feel moody all the time, maybe I shouldn’t blame the allergies maybe I am just moody all the time.
Sometimes I think I blog too much, but I really have nothing to do. I use to feel kind of embarrassed when people say things like “you still work at ____” and “so you’re not doing..anything?” -insert pity look- The thing is, I really don’t feel embarrassed about it, am I beyond hope? I sure hope not but at the same time, what can I do, there’s no point in defending myself over something like this. Also it’s not a competition, there’s no prize when you secure a mortgage and I am still eating pizza by the slice, okay?
ok….
listening to a lot of lykke li because! i hate not knowing lyrics at shows.. it bloooody sucks
what i did today:
ORGANIZED LINKS!
I think the list is missing some, but nevertheless, it took some time to organize, if you are bored on the internet, peruse the list of links and see what interests you?
Finished reading through of the first draft, hmm, is it weird if I think its okay? I know that writers are suppose to hate their own work, like a lot, and like kill themselves over it, but I feel okay, Maybe this isn’t a good sign…but i’m also not a writer…
this is what i’m planning to do soon ( written on the back of an amazon.com receipt! )
if anything, my book, it is a FAST read, you can probably polish it off in like 1 hr… ? I wrote it for months, savor it won’t you?! (cries) just kidding…
I also read something else (HA!) good today.
Ten rules for writing Fiction
Philip Pullman’s was my favorite
My main rule is to say no to things like this, which tempt me away from my proper work.
what a riot…!
I also went to the doctor’s today, while waiting, i was playing with my phone, someone stood beside me and began to read his copy of Life of Pi, even though I had a long wait I couldn’t pull out my copy and read along with him, it felt toooo awkward. He looked like a high school student, I know it’s mandatory reading for highschool, why didn’t I read it in high school? Ah wells.
I really want to work on le novel but i dont know…..maybe I’ll read the 2 part article again..