SLEPT TILL NOON
+then again i sleep till noon everyday. okay i’m going to rectify that!!!!!
but today i really tried not to get up. i told myself to really just get up when i want to.
to be honest yesterday when i got the news there was this shake! feeling through me but then it went away pretty quickly. maybe deep down i know it’s not for me. i’m really worried about the money. i am emptying bank accounts left and right for this..and because it’s a US school, I don’t know if i can apply for student loans.
that aside, i felt a lot more sad because i felt like i should have. i think when i am upset i am not very obvious about it, i just get really drunk and then text people….! i didn’t do that yesterday though.
another thing is that i started watching Shut up! flower boy band again yesterday. oH MY GOD stay away from that drama if you’re feeling especially lonely. it is..ridiculous… i really like the main character i must say… for someone so poor he wears a LOT OF givenchy lol 
anyways.
straying from topic. the point is, i thought about it. the good things that came out of this is that i get to save a lot of money for my parents. i don’t really want to do journalism because i am biased in everything and i really show it. i like to write stories and novels. and i want to be an author. i would love to write for a magazine or newspaper but not really traditional sort of “journalism”. i like fashion and pop culture and arts and design and i’d rather do that than..say…the war on..something.
so that’s good right?!?!?!
i had a lot of things that i wanted to say when i started typing this entry..but i can’t remember them now.
oh wells, i’ll add them at another time.
but yeah, i’m glad that i put “rejected by columbia journalism school” in the last entry because there was one hit from someone! I hope that I made that person feel better because feeling rejected is the worst when you think that you are the only one to be rejected!
everyone! fighting! ﾆﾔ(･∀･)ﾆﾔ
an update
4 commentsfor a second there i felt like my life was over!
phew, it turned out that i still have all my limbs and stuff….
i sulked for a good while then watched gintama then sulked some more.
i think the initial reaction is disappointment but once you get over that then you realize you just saved $70000 but of course you also lost a chance at something good but also it might have been just a waste of money.
yeah i was pretty depressed earlier and it doesnt help that none of my friends are good at being…helpful when these types of situations arise….. how did i end up on the phone for half an hour listening to your problems?!?!?!?!
anyways, that’s not the point…que sera sera…
friendly rejection letter i think..better than the one that i got once that said “please look for more suitable challenges”…
but i think i have to reevaluate myself on a few things because i was sure i was going to get in simply because they extended the deadline for the application by a whole month! that means they didnt think they have enough good candidates by the deadline. what with the recession and people having a hard time i thought that the $47000 tuition fee + living expenses was going to blow a lot of people out of the park.
naturally i can’t afford it either but that’s what student loans are for.
anyways….
so while i was being very emo earlier i wasn’t exactly being upset about this opportunity lost but rather what the fudge am i going to do now. as a few people know i got a very low-paying job (despite it’s unionized) at IKEA. so i’m going to work there for now.
because i have no idea what to do now…i am just..confused and hurt and heart broken as if i were just dumped or something.
but i would like to thank all the people that wrote me reference letters!
it’s pointless because none of the three people that wrote me reference letters reads this blog. oh wells.
anyways, that’s that, we move on right?
still all limbs in tact…
P.S. even though my blog was part of my portfolio for the application, you think that’s what drove them away from accepting me?
P.P.S. some part of me feels relieved…..
(going to put -rejected by Columbia University Journalism School- here so it’s more easily google-able so other folks that were rejected can know that they aren’t the only one)
Umbrella Warrior
3 commentsi changed the URL of my tumblr from fuckyeahigavein.tumblr.com to ->> umbrella-warrior.tumblr.com
actually i still hold the original URL as well, I might want it back because I am greedy like that
not everyone uses tumblr and some RSS the blog so I thought I would make this public service announcement.
I had to deal with tax stuff yesterday, and passport renew stuff, it was very taxing …
So I halted my write / look for jobs thing
and this morning I read this article … The Sugardaddy recession
is it really that bad? i need to properly look for a job now, even though that’s what i’ve been doing this whole time. What am i doing wrong? T_T
850px
5 commentswill be the new image size (mostly) from now on
for now only one post will be on the front page until i have enough large-sized-image posts to fill it up! :D
aren’t the links pretttty?
also thank you to rebecca for helping me figure out a misplaced div sign
Happy New year! 新年快乐
Comments Offi was born on the year of the dragon so it’s my year (i’ve waited 12 years…)! as well as millions of other people…
somehow the new year didn’t feel real until we’ve passed the lunar calendar as well…
best wishes and prosperity for everyone in the up coming year of the dragon
hope everyone that celebrated it had an exciting and fun night!