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The Brilliant Green – Rainy Days Never Stay

my cheekbones feel swollen, like someone punched me in the face, no one did i can assure you, but someone did throw bread at me yesterday. the culprit i did not happen to see, but it’s weird, and it didnt hurt at all, i wonder why they did it.

i think my cheeks feels swollen because i’m sick.

i like neocitran, it tastes like lemon, then it makes you feel all numb. it’s great.

these days have been a bit difficult, it’s september, summer is over..

there are things to be looked forward to, but for now, i can bear all i can bear.

Horses

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i’m not that superstitious, but it doesn’t hurt right?

i’m a dragon on the chinese zodiac, and supposedly i should buy a horse figurine and put it on my east side..to bring luck and prosperity, all the jade dragons in the world will be on your side.

i dont know if there are limitations on certain types of horse figurine but i think i’ll go buy Bullseye, from Toy Story 3, i can’t think of a better horse.

and my dear horse figurine, you know what i want this year, and i only want this one thing, i’ve been patient, please dont let me down.

I NEED A DOLLAR!

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title indicates the Aloe Blacc song, which happens to be the opening for “How to Make it in America” which coincidentally was called “entourage new york edition” (in my head, i dont know why it’s coincidentally, it’s not really a coincidence at all, they are both on HBO?)… yeah i like TV shows like that. I think I wrote this longgggg post about how it felt not legitimate because the main character just doesn’t have that ‘street vibe’. i think i never posted it because I was afraid I was wrong because i’m not that confident in my street culture 101. Its a good show though, check it out, i think it’s on HBO or something, or you can torrent it like everybody else in the world.

let me tell you a story about how inadequate i am about my knowledge of street culture, well this was before, a long time ago, when i just got into it, i said something like “nice color ways” on some forum about these air maxes and people totally killed me on that forum “those are infrareds, how can you say you know about supreme then you go and say that” something along this line, people were questioning my gender..so

yeahhh it’s not a good story. i quit that forum a long time ago, they ripped me apart too much, i have never felt more self-conscious in my life.

“this is me, this is my style” << if you know the name of the forum, 1 million friendship points for you!

i have some pics to share, well it’s just me, at central park, doing dumb shit as always..

but first, some pretty flowers that i photoshopped to look better

SR-71 – ALL AMERICAN (this song describes how i feel right now?)

this is legitimately heavy, i have skinny girl arms, so i could only hold it long enough to take a picture.

leap-frog activity, i have long legs so i thought i could do this, but, no i cant, i can’t do it because i suck.

more skinny girl arms here, i’m sorry it’s so mr.blurrycam (name the source of this coinage, another million friendship points for you)

then i went to take my blood pressure at a drug store because all the cool people do it, also we have family history of hypertension or some shit like that. even though it says it’s normal, this is actually really high for me. someONE is making my blood pressure high, i think this someone knows who this someone is. actually probably not, this someone doesnt read my blog.

its 2 am, work tomorrow, all freaking day, so this will be scheduled to be posted during then, feels like i’m here when i’m totally not.

DREAM MORE

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Holding it together for a better, tomorrow

With what do i go on?

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Clazziquai Project – 라푼젤 (rapunzel)

i was sitting in the car waiting for it to warm up, and I wanted to take a really cool picture of looking into the rear view mirror. it failed obviously, probably would need an assistant to help with this picture.

summer is moving too fast, the things that i was doing last week i am no longer doing (i.e. job hunting) but i’m still working hard on my korean lessons. Although, i must say, progress has declined almost to a halt. i was so proud of myself, as was my tutor, with my speed in learning hangul. it was really really fast, a lot faster than when i learned hiragana. (tooting my own horn, well IT IS my blog) i mean, i have a pretty good grasp of the vowels and the consonants, but when i read it’s like … “ah n ? eyon ha se yo..” Oh …

and now we’ve started with a bit of grammar, it’s not mind blowing, because it’s similar to japanese. and we all know how good my japanese is (2.5 years of studies, 3 months of living in japan, and fully relying on subtitles when watching stuff)../fail whale../

but still, the only thing i’ve had little trouble in my studies was languages and history. History won’t get me too far, so i’ll rely on my language skills. Well except for french, but i think its mostly because french culture doesn’t interest me very much, also was scared of my professor..but, learning french was still relatively easy, if i bothered to try … or i was too busy studying the BIG THREE (phys/bio/chem)

but, i’ve still studied french for FIVE /..counts../ FIVE years.

je m’appelle emma, comment ca va?

ca va bien, et toi?

the end.

hahahahahahaha, kidding, i know a bit more than that, not a LOT more though.

i’ve lost the point of this post, the fish is shiny no?

well this post was suppose to be talking about my lack of direction in my future, please understand that i’m trying not to screw my life up right from the start, aka right from graduating. i want to do well. i really want to do well. but i dont know what i want to do well in.

should i just run away forever?