as you were
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im in this giant cloud of negativity 
and it’s not goooood at all
as everyone knows, i really dont like my job right now and it’s been giving me a lot of trouble. but i think i am going to try to find a happy medium of IDGAF. It’s wednesday already so I’ll just try to cruise through the rest of the week because so many great things are happening on Saturday for me!
I’ve been writing a lot at work, at least an hour each day, 4 or 5 hand written pages. Here’s a sample page of shitty writing to show you….
I am also trying to think up a pen name but god so hard when you’re Asian. Any suggestions? I like the idea of having Alt as a last name. I don’t know why….
AH one day at a time, balance, it’s all about balance and…eating well and getting rid of unnecessary headaches in a reasonable manner.
edit: the new novel will be the ULTIMATE BILDUNGSROMAN
Big! Big! Movies
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Iron Man 3 B+ I had a great time watching it even though it seemed like there were inconsistencies everywhere. RDJ is amazing as always and it was just a fun good time. I can rarely say anything really bad about super hero movies because I always have a good time watching them. If you want to watch something exciting and fun and children friendly, this is the one to go to! Even though there are a ton of people complaining on IMDB about this or that. But those people are always complaining.
The Great Gatsby C+ It was..alright, not as fantastic as I expected it to be. Compared to the Daisy in my head I felt like Carey Mulligan was mis-cast. I like her a LOT and she rocks short hair like no one else and she looked beautiful in the film but she lacks something for it. I liked the movie and the cinematic of it all but it felt lacking for me. It was a fun movie to watch but it would be equally good on the big TV at home.
you don’t know what you want until you aren’t sure if you have it
6 commentsBIG NEWS 
BIG NEWS
I got wait-listed! *balloons immediately deflate*
I got the news yesterday morning via email. I was half asleep when I was reading it and it was barely 7 AM. I’ve never been wait-listed for anything in my life! That’s not to say that I am excellent in all areas and pass with flying colors rather it’s more like I’ve never been wait-listed because I usually just get rejected.
The plot thickens.
Compared to last year, this is a stunning improvement over the flat out rejection from Columbia J-school. In hindsight I am extremely glad that I didn’t get in. It was a money-hemorrhaging program in a money-hemorrhaging school in a money-hemorrhaging city. As much as I love New York City, it’s just too expensive to live in… especially evident due to this tumblr cataloging the worst rooms for rent for unbelievable amounts of money.
I’m living too comfortably lately and the idea that I am doing something new or going somewhere new is exciting and encouraging but oh so scary. But because I’ve been wait-listed, I feel more calm, like there’s a intermission between flat out rejection and acceptance and the busy-ness that’s sure to follow.
Because I’ve been wait-listed it made me realize more that I do definitely want to go. Working in my office feels like I’m rotting a little bit, a few cells at a time and I’m slowly being chipped away while melting like a giant ice sculpture. It’s really funny because my supervisor keeps asking me what I want to do in the future, I’m sure she’d like me to stay forever and ever. But too bad, I have DREAMSSSSS 
and HOPESSSSS 
and a limit 
for working with abusive people
anyways, that’s exciting~ isn’t it?
stickers!!!!
+i got these as a gift and man they are too cute~~
now if only there was something worthy to stick these on to……