TERRIBLY TERRIFYING
1 commentSchool started yesterday for everyone, everyone BUT me.
If i left the rest of this blog entry blank, it would have been able to perfectly articulate my state right now.
My life is blank. Since I’m not going to school, i’m chugging along at my job, my part-time job that feels like a full time job. My 35 hours this week feels like 40+ overtime.
Today, some corporate people visited. They performed their job very well. They walked in, made everyone feel insignificant and small, scanned the store and walked away haughtily. Good job guys, I see why they pay you the big bucks now. I can NEVER for the life of me, make other people feel like you do.
Actually that’s not really true because no one ever acknowledged me, and didnt even really notice me. For that I am eternally grateful, but this is just my general impression of them every time they come…
So I just kept on thinking what I want to do, what I am doing, and how do I start doing what I want to do. I dont know what I want to do so how do I give my all? I am 100% willing to throw everything away, take my blood, take my heart, take my soul, take it all, I don’t want any of it. I just want purpose right now…
I saw this video on Jeff Staples blog, blogged by KatyParis..
I dont want to do fashion at this point because I hate it, I love it and I hate it. I’d rather be a bystander than be involved. Although the atmosphere shown by the following video I like, I want to work like that, no matter what kind of work it is…
CAPSULE SHOW juin 2010 from menageatrois on Vimeo.
Like Confucius said: If you enjoy what you do, you will never work another day in your life
wise man is wise
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You’re really not alone in not knowing what you want to do! All my friends and I are like that, even my older friends who’ve only got a couple of months left. I don’t know what it is but I feel like we’re all just waiting for something to happen and not really pushing ourselves hard enough and forcing things to happen but then I suppose it’s hard to make it happen when you don’t even know what you want. Haha, my gosh. I’ll just shut up now. Also, corporate. Urgh.