it’s SPRING BREAK!
weird when you’re in school there are these scheduled times to take breaks. I think that people that work should get that too, probably not as often as students would but breaks for every season makes sense.
Jobs are mind numbing rather than “tiring”, so hopefully you’ll find yourself in a job that’s not so mind numbing. Also you get paid at a job where as you’re paying to go to school. I get lost in the money factor and constantly want to be working, even if it’s a job that I don’t like or enjoy.
School has been okay, but it’s stressful lately because it’s internship season. my website is up but there’s scarcely any work or good work on it. I am rather trying to show that I can do it, through my winning personality and adorable internet facade. Hopefully, that’ll reach somebody…somewhere
When I came back to after break I brought so much clothes with me. I not only had one huge suitcase but also two boxes shipped via UPS. Now I realize that I don’t need that much clothes here. As much as I want to enjoy what I wear everyday I realized that I waste too much energy on thinking about clothes. I’ve prepared myself an all black uniform for weekdays that I don’t care and just want to be comfortable.
black jeans, black tshirts, black cardigan, black uniqlo thermal heattech, black vans, black converse, black nikes, black doc martens
and for outerwear, warmth is key!
yesterday it was snowing/raining pellets of ice, i wore jeans that had holes in the knees, needless to say i was freezing.
i think having this uniform during busy/stressful times can be good. as much as i enjoy picking out clothes it’s also kind of a waste of time when you just can’t be thinking about stuff like that.
my boyfriend is visiting me starting from Sunday. I’m going to rent a car so I’m excited for our mini road trips. We want to visit DC but it seems like a daunting task to drive in, I’m not at all used to the highways. We barely had any in Vancouver… though driving local was equally stressful.
But I’m sure we can do it, TomTom will be on our side.
it’s been so long since I last updated my blog! I can’t remember why/how I updated so often before.
Today is a snow day. The SECOND snow day of the semester. My friend who attends U of T tells me that there are no snow days at UT because then there would be too many snow days. It was funny, because just yesterday I walked to the nearby thrift store in a leather jacket and t-shirt. since I am always overly cautious, I wore a sweater underneath, instead of it made the walk unbearably hot.
And today, it’s snowing. At least our ceiling is fixed.
I really want to blog more and it’s not that i’m so busy that I can’t find any time to do that.
I am procrastinating on two things right now, making myself food and writing radio ads. Our prof told us that if you can write radio then you can probably write anything. As well, before, when I took that copywriting class at BCIT (wow that was a long time ago), the prof there also said that if you can write radio you’ll always have a job.
going through magazine print ads, and believe me, i’m not being haughty, I will definitely have a writing job at some agency, but that really isn’t the goal here. IF I don’t have a job it won’t be because of my bad writing / thinking it will be because that I don’t get along with the staff, this is a self deprecating joke, please laugh.
so every year i do that year in review thing. and this year i didn’t make an new years resolutions! but right now I have one! I thought about it a month after and I’ve been trying my best to abide by it.
The goal is to follow through with what I say.
I tell a lot of people that I’ll make them mixed CDs, maybe you have a friend that always says “let’s get coffee” then it NEVER happens. This is such the norm that people never assume that dinner plans, mixed cds, coffees will be had and then they are surprised when it does happen! When did this become the norm? When did this become okay?
so if i say that i’ll make you a mixed CD with korean coffee shop music i’m definitely putting that on my to do list. If I say i’ll bring a book for you to read, i’ll be damned if i don’t.
so i’ve been pretty good about that.
a second thing i’m working on, which i should have started to work on earlier, is put a filter over my mouth. i’m not a vile person but i say vile things. VERY VILE, and I don’t even think about who’s sitting near me before I say it. therefore it leads to a lot of bad…blood, even when I don’t mean it. I don’t know why I say the things that I do!
So I’m working on that.
Following through, and Filtering.
That’s what i’m doing!
Currently reading Catch22 and the collection of Birthday stories accumulated by Murakami.
It’s a snow day, did I mention that?
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but here’s the link to the youtube video
i posted this because i started coloring for stress relief. here’s a page from dover coloring books garden party!
these coloring books are intricate and not very expensive, often just around $3 on amazon
i am really feeling the stress flowing out of my body
i always feel guilty about not participating in things.
today is the SUPER BOWL! It’s a big deal here in the USA. And there’s a party with a bunch of school people. The good thing about my school is that you’re always invited, even if you aren’t officially invited…
another big thing about the super bowl is that it’s the most expensive media buy time of the YEAR. and for us who potentially might work in advertising, it’s the biggest advertising event of the year.
but i don’t want to go. i just don’t want to even though i think that i am missing out on chances to socialize with school people, but seriously i’ll just end up feeling awkward and probably will drink too much.
i am one of those people that has an empty life on purpose. and it’s a constant internal struggle of wanting to live life more but really not wanting to even a little bit.
( i defrosted some beef, will make some food later so now i really can’t go)
if i am going i’d probably organize my time better and do work in the morning and have a nice time at night.
but i need this down time..absolute down time and flipping through youtube channels and watching dumb things, i’ve been sitting on my ass for like 3 hours.
i really need that time.
i need to feel bored of myself and my own space to want to go outside again.
sitting around on your ass for a few hours ensures better creativity and work (maybe)
i thought a lot about why i dislike it here so much. am i someone that constantly needs human interaction that i can’t hang out by myself? i’m actually pretty good at hanging out by myself. Probably what’s troubling is that there’s little to do alone here in richmond. if i were in nyc, or tokyo or any major city, i’d have tons of stuff to do and not to mention there would be a viable public transportation system.
i like going to museums or record stores or cake shops or super markets and all that fun stuff…
but there, everything requires me to drive..and i just don’t have the energy/money to buy a car..
also it feels kind of unsafe here.
it’ll be over soon enough.
currently listening to: heaven knows by the pretty reckless
reading: bird by bird
and excited to read
and February issue of Esquire: WEIRD MEN
searching for time so that i can watch
feel like a better person
by any means necessary
hoping to understand
how i can’t seem to work hard ever
found this illusion calendar here on behance by korean designer Kwan
I printed it out on tabloid size paper (11 by 17)
it looks fantastic